"It's finding people that do understand"

Hadley

“It’s finding people that do understand”

Mary: I would be very emotional when I tried to do something, especially in public that I thought I could do and I couldn't. You've been doing these things all your life and suddenly you can't.

Marc: This is Hadley’s Insights and Sound Bites, where people facing vision loss share what has helped them cope and adjust.

Mary: My name is Mary. I'm from Tinley Park, that's a town south of Chicago. I've had some macular degeneration since 2017, but it really got bad about a year ago. When I went to the retinologist, he just said, ‘oh, I'm terribly sorry. There's nothing we can do.’

I didn't know where to go from there, what I could do or it was beginning to interfere with reading. I hadn't been reading a lot, you know, less and less and now it really was real hard to read. Then it was starting to be kind of questionable whether driving was safe or not. And so, my world was cut back to really having a very hard time reading anything even with magnifiers and the loss of driving.

I happened to see a woman that I knew and directed me to a low vision support group in this area. I went there and they were talking about other things, about Lighthouse for the Blind, about Hadley, about different magnifying glasses that would help and other devices out there that would might help. So, from that point on, I am getting some direction.

I would be very emotional when I tried to do something, especially in public that I thought I could do and I couldn't. The tears would just come. And I found that was very common, that you've been doing these things all your life and suddenly you can't.

Someone described it as a death and you go through the stages of death. But it is a death, a death of what I could do and what I can do now.

It's just trying to adjust to a different way of life for the rest of my life. But it's hard after I'm 80, so after 80 years of independence now I have to become dependent in a lot of ways.

I find the most support from people in similar situations. And then you find that there are some people that have a lot more trouble, but yet they're coping with things. But I am trying to make myself a priority to find out what I can do. I think part of it is time, but part of it is finding people that do understand that even though you are walking around and you're looking like you're doing perfectly fine, it's not perfect and none of it's going to be the way it was.

My family doctor said something about who helped you find these things? And I'm thinking mostly it was me just asking everybody or anything that would help that I thought would help me. And I do feel like better. And maybe part of it probably is just time.

At first, I was a little angry with my retinologist. I told him about the support group. He said, oh yeah, we tell our people about that. I'm thinking you didn't tell me.

So yeah, I am really on feel like I'm on a want to be on a mission to help other people that were in my situation and never found real direction. You know, where to go and how to deal with things.

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